Wentworth Miller Reveals He Was Once Suicidal in Inspirational Facebook Post Addressing Viral …
03/29/2016 AT 08:35 AM EDT
The 43-year-old Prison Break star took to Facebook on Monday, revealing that he was once suicidal and addressing a meme highlighting his past weight gain.
“Today I found myself the subject of an Internet meme. Not for the first time. This one, however, stands out from the rest,” he wrote in the lengthy post. “In 2010, semi-retired from acting, I was keeping a low-profile for a number of reasons. First and foremost, I was suicidal.”
“I was looking everywhere for relief/comfort/distraction. And I turned to food,” the actor wrote. “It could have been anything. Drugs. Alcohol. Sex. But eating became the one thing I could look forward to. Count on to get me through.”
He added: “And I put on weight. Big f—— deal.”
Today I found myself the subject of an Internet meme. Not for the first time. This one, however, stands out from the…
A meme posted on the LAD Bible’s Facebook page features side-by-side photos of Miller, one a promotional shot of Miller, shirtless and fit for the Fox series Prison Break, and another, a photo of Miller in a red t-shirt with longer hair and a heavier frame.
He said the latter photo was taken years ago in Los Angeles, when, he says, he was at the “lowest point” of his adult life.
He wrote that he was “ashamed and in pain” at the time, suffering in silence. He wrote that he considered himself “damaged goods” and contemplated suicide.
Wentworth Miller,We posted two pictures of you last night to our Facebook page, but today we want to say we’ve got…
Now, Miller is in a better place, although he said that when he first saw the meme “it hurt to breathe.”
“Now, when I see that image of me in my red t-shirt, a rare smile on my face, I am reminded of my struggle,” he continued. “My endurance and my perseverance in the face of all kinds of demons. Some within. Some without. Like a dandelion up through the pavement, I persist.”
He included multiple links to organizations focused on suicide prevention and depression help. He encouraged struggling fans to “Reach out. Text. Send an email. Pick up the phone if they are struggling.”